panic

what do i stinkin want? i'm so confused and on ends....i wish that it was easier, that i didn't have to make all the decisions and all the moves...i am so tired of making the decisions, doing everything...it's wearing me out....why can't it just be simpler? why do i feel like i am juggling my life in my hands? Because i am...i feel like i am in candy land and i keep having to go back spaces and it suck, terribly sucks...and this is my calm down because i feel like i am having a panic attack.... :(