like a child

I feel like a little child who has fallen and hurt themselves and although I am seeking the comfort and love of my parents hands, I am running from that comfort in fear of losing my independence...but I want that love, I want that comfort...I want my independence and I don't want someone to question it...but I just wish that I had hope, wish I had something to actually hope for and wish that those "promises" God placed in my heart made me smile, feel invigorated, filled me with hope....when in reality, where I stand...there is terror...fear...hopelessness.....